dilemma

I am now clear through the first half of my senior year and i am currently fully delved into the season of ski team. Out of my three high school sports, i would have to say that skiing is not only my favorite, but also my forte if you will. I am not going to sit here and "blog" about how much i like skiing because that would not be very interesting (but any way i look at it this blog will not turn out interesting). Along with skiing, i am also playing on a co-ed indoor soccer team, which is pretty good time. Unfortunately by participating on this soccer team, it forces me to miss a day of ski practice or perhaps a meet every week. My position on this is that i feel it is completely necessary to skip the ski practice and play on this team not only because it is good to change up the routine and get back to my soccer roots, but also because i dont see it as a big deal to skip one practice a week. In other words, my guilty conscience is not very strong which enables me to take skipping practice so lightly. But this week's skipping of ski practice would also mean skipping team pictures. Aside from the threats of my coach that i could be kicked off and me not taking that seriously, i now realize that i am a returning captain of the boys team. Not having the captian in the photo could actually become a big deal. Not only could i lose this position of captain, but what message does this send to those coming back to the ski team or thinking about joining?
"The captain was not there for pictures so i think im just gunna skip a few practices now"
I can see it now, one after another will think lightly of this ski team as i do/did. The guilty conscience i thought was so weak is now coming back to me at this very moment. As the end of school approaches, so does this decision i will have to make as to whether or not i am going to i am going to be selfish or just show up to the team pictures. A follow up blog will come tomorrow as to how this dilemma turns out.